Catharsis

This has been on my mind lately.

I was anorexic is high school. I'm not stating that because I'm proud of it because I'm not.

But when things get bad I want to be back there.

Some time in Sept. 08' I wrote about it. I know why I did it.

It's the constant flux - I can't stand it.

I would like a constant semblance - of place, people in my life, my fucking anxiety.

You'd be suprised

But I have a very poor self image.

Singular

I'll never understand why mental illness is so stigmatized in the United States.

Death of Newspapers = Death of Journalism?

There has been a lot of talk over the future of the newspaper. Some are already mourning the death of having ink stained hands with their 7 a.m coffee, but are they being too presumptuous?

Just like the news industry its self, I'm torn. Even though I fairly young, I must admit that I have a certain nostalgia attached to the printed newspaper. There is a certain zen that can only be found in the layout of a physical paper.

But....

An online paper is just so easy! I can't afford to get The New York Times, the WaPo, the Wall Street Journal, and the 3 British newspapers shipped to my house on a daily basis. Yeah, the online layout seems a little callous but it works.

The internet also works because it gets the stories to the people and isn't that what is ultimately journalism about? The current position that newspapers are in doesn't necessarily mean that journalism is going to disappear. For democratic reasons, it's impossible not to have the news. The U.S. would either fall to shambles if that happened [Cynic's Note: Like it isn't already?] or revert to a backwards third world country.

As a journalism major, I won't try to be optimistic about the job market in this field. Of course the slow demise of the printed paper is taking effecting who's hired and who isn't but I'm not as demoralized as I should be. I say this, not because I'm donning rose coloured glasses, but because good writing will never go out style.

The Perks of Hypermobility

I thought that I would never ever say that Hypermobility has an up side. As someone who was diagnosed with it at the age of 13, I have dislocated nearly every joint in my body and have been on a variety of pain killers.

Anyways, I stumbled across this site hosted by the BBC. It has a list of 10 benefits of hypermobility are epic....and true. (list below)

1. Never needing help to apply fake tan to that annoying unreachable bit in between your shoulders.

2. Knowing that baby soft skin isn't just an advertising myth. [This is very, very, very true!! I have gotten so many compliments about my soft skin!]

3. Being able to feel superior at yoga classes, even though you only started them a week ago.

4. Having the real chance to run away and join the circus. [lol, it's good to have a back up plan in case my journalism dreams don't work out]

5. Being able to earn money doing contortionist tricks for TV home video shows. [tee hee, I guess that this can go with #4]

6. Silencing doctors who say "You can't do that" by saying "Oh yeah? Watch me!" [BEST BENEFIT OF ALL!! It's fun to shut doctors up.]

7. Telling people it really is your parents' fault.[My parents get pissed when I bring this up. XP]

8. Reducing dislocated joints in front of an audience, therefore cementing your hard as nails reputation. [Nothing says bad ass like reducing your own shoulder!]

9. Never having to not buy something because you can't reach the zip.

10. Knowing that you really are one in 15,000.

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While I completely agree with the list, I noticed that one benefit is missing. So, I must add a 11 to the list!!

11. It's a great way to pick up dudes (this mostly applies to females but it could apply to hypermobile guys as well).

I say that this is benefit because not only is hypermobility an interesting aspect about myself, it's a great conversation starter. It also drives dudes wild because they have crazy fantasies (think sex with a gymnast ones); however, I'm still a virgin so I don't actually know. XP

NOTE: That is actually a picture of my right arm bent out of place.

I May Own Nothing...

but I want this!!



Bohemians commonly say that we own nothing but want the world in order to reassert the fact that we are poor and have a disregard for consumerism. However, I have major lust for that piece of jewelery above. For those of you who don't know, it's a replication of the necklace worn by the nude in Manet's L'Olympia.



*Drool!* [While I do have an undying love for all things Manet, the drool was meant for the necklace; not the nude.]

The Olympia Pendent can be found for €40 (a little over $50) at
Boutiques de musees. Alas, while it is a really good price, I cannot afford it.

Moved To Tears...

by a single quote.

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~ Oscar Wilde Lady Windermere's Fan, 1892, Act III

I almost cried when I read this. It's so simple, yet, it speaks echos about human existence.